Emergence – the story of a painting

Hello and welcome – so I now know how to make gifs so prepare yourself 😀 here’s one I call Emergence

I am forever fretting over my place in this world and what I contribute in terms of actual help to my fellow humans –  do I give enough money, time, love, aid, meaningful political debate, support, joy, fury, opinion… etc etc.

When I am feeling so helpless I’ve lapsed into silence, I paint, or draw or fiddle about with clay. I have always thought art was one of the most important things that humans do. But then doubted the sincerity or quality of my own. I seek out the art of others to soothe my soul and keep me sane but I worry mine is a self indulgent pass time. I write erotic stories that delve into the horrors of our inner demons but worry I alienate readers because of it *spoiler alert* – everybody dies 😀

But recently, I’ve begun to realise that for me, creating things however ‘self indulgent’ it might feel – keeps me level, sane, and helps me to find joy in times when I could lie in my bed and give up to despair.

So here I give you a painting and its Emergence from the blank paper. I could never do this model justice – she is even more beautiful on the inside – a magnificent human being.

And even though I should be doing so many other things… I’m writing this post in the hope that if you ever doubt your own art – please keep doing it and putting it out there – folks like me need it.

It’s hard being a human!

Love and sincerity

Tabitha x x x